Warm and brown beneath the sun
Never learned to climb a tree but I would try
Just to show you what I'd done
Oh what I wouldn't do If I had you, babe, I had you
Oh what I wouldn't do If I had you, babe
I recently watched Braveheart again for the first time in...15 years I guess. That's weird. To be able to say "I did (fill in the blank) again for the first time in 15 years"...that I would be able to put 15 years behind me on something other than myself. Other than my own age. DAAANG. Well, I hear your 30's are way better anyway...no one tells you that your 20's are a second puberty so any of you who have just hit your 20's or are in them splashing around like a child thrown into the deep end, unable to swim, I'm here to tell you the splashing around ambitiously is completely normal. In fact, I suggest embracing it. It'll save you a good few years of confused depression. And depression is bad enough w/out it being confusing. Just sayin.
Perhaps your 30's are truly where adulthood begins. I like to think my uterus will start acting her age around that time but this town doesn't lend itself to acting your age so we'll see. Lately though? I have actually felt a little tugging in there.
FLASHBACK TO MONDAY NIGHT WITH 4 YEAR-OLD KAIA
Me: "Okay now close your eyes and try to dream"
Kaia: "Okay but what should I dream about?"
Me: "Well you can dream about anything you want honey...like going to Disneyland with mommy and daddy tomorrow or...being a princess with your very own castle and beautiful dresses and white horses! You can dream about anything-"
Kaia: "I want that!"
(Beat)
Kaia: (As I rub her back) Do you have a daughter?
(Beat)
Me: Do I have a daughter??
Kaia: Yeah do you?
Me: No. I don't have a husband so I don't have a daughter...but someday, I think I'd like to. And I hope she's as fun as you are.
Kaia: (Yawning and smiling) Thanks.
