twenty-five

i used to live in this fairy tale where i belonged to my grandparents and i was their world- all three of my siblings and i. only now am i beginning to realize that they were my world. this world doesn't last forever. my grandfather is 82 and a lot of that world has already been broken upon my grandmother's passing twelve years ago.

but for now, i will savor it and hope that i can one day build a world just as lovely as they did for me.


I'll never feel the weight of your hands
Inside mine like diamonds
Lace so fine ballerina
Cupcake and my earthquake
Wakes me from a sleep that
Never comes are you breathing
Waiting for me

I didn't really want you
But I want you now
Was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud

I didn't think I needed you
But I need you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you crashing down
Into the empty world
The music stops
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
You will always be mine

The room spins
Pull you from me
My body burns
Tell me of the rainbows
The colors that the rain throws
Ballerina dance softly
She knows when to come only
When she's called I’m slowly coming to

So, so sorry
Just come back for me now
So, so sorry
Just come back to me now
oh soon

I didn't think I wanted you
But I want you now
It was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud

I didn't think I needed you
But I need you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you tumbling down
Into the empty world
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
That you will always be mine

--Leona Naess